Zeal for your house will consume me. John 2:13-17
This week, the fellowship in our apartment shared these verses. Chris asked a very valuable question which is does the zeal for his house consume you? At that time, I didn’t really think it’s a really big question since I didn’t think it’s important to answer that.
However everything changed on Wednesday morning. When I got off the bus at the downtown, I just saw a very old man who sat in his chair, could not speak and even grip things in his hands. But what in his right hand is New Testament, what in his eyes is love from God and zealous for His kingdom. I just passed by with a smile and appeared like nothing happened. But my heart felt deeply ashamed. I asked myself, am I younger than him? Am I more vigorous than him? Am I healthier than him? Am I more influential than him? All the answers are YES. I am so blessed to be here in Iowa City, so blessed to have awesome roommates, so blessed that I basically face no problem in another culture. What did I do to obtain all of these? Nothing but those which can put me into hell for millions of times. So just because of His grace. He loves me so much that even I don’t love him and try to hide from him for many times, He still helps me, forgives me and heals me from the suffer. How wonderful my God is! I usually start my prayer with dear Father, but do I really treat my Father in the way I should or even do I think He is dear to me? If I do, what consumes me most is kingdom. But I find out everyday those truly consumed my time are chatting, reading sports news and playing video games. I am tired of myself, no, no more life in this way. My Lord, I just pray that I have a heart zeal for your house on the earth. Give me that heart please. Lord I love you.